Quarantine Journals - Friends, Teachers, Masks, Mayhem

Bittersweet moments in social distancing. Passed some pepper seedlings along to friends, and Penny asked if we could yell hi across the yard. So we did. ❤️😔

It was nice to see some friendly faces and chat, even though it was a challenge to do so through masks across the yard.  But, it was also depressing. Penny was bored of standing there pretty quickly, and there wasn't much to offer them to do that would be safe.  The girls got to chat a little bit, and Callan sang us a frozen two song.  When it was time to go, I went and got all over from in the house with Richard, and brought him out to wave goodbye. I tried to put his mask on, but he wasn't having any of it. So we went inside as I started to get on their bikes and take off their masks and waved from the window. Afterwards, I just felt a huge sense of depression. An overwhelming sensation of sadness, and I went into the bathroom and did a video chat to a friend and then just cried. Oliver didn't even asked to walk over to them. This is literally become his new normal as it has taken over a third of his life.  and my heart just hurts for what this is doing to Penny. Lynette asked her if she's excited about school ending, and I'll Penny said was "I miss my friends."

Lynette mentioned struggling with finding some necessities grocery store wise, and how difficult it is to do deliveries when you're on food stamps, so I texted Carmen and asked her if she would help me do a grocery order to drop off at their place. I didn't hear back from her for several hours and started to worry that something was wrong, but she had just been busy and didn't hear her phone go off. I was so relieved to see her text.  She's going to help with the order tomorrow. We're going to send them some of the hard to find essentials, and then send them some treats as well.

For dinner, Richard and the kids made salmon cakes. They did it all together, and it was really sweet. We harvested fresh dill, fresh parsley, and fresh green onions from our garden, which was really neat for both Me and the kids. Dinner was absolutely delicious, and we ate it while we watched the new Scooby Doo movie again.

I gave away all of the pepper plants except for two. The woman who was supposed to come get them didn't come by.

I spent the evening transplanting my spinach plants into some new self watering pots that I bought. Here's hoping they're more successful in there.

Got into a fight tonight with Deanna, and I still feel pretty shitty about it.  The masks that she had ordered for my birthday arrived today, and I hand washed them and dried them on the line outside. The one we tried them on they were tub bit too small, and when she asked how they fit I answered honestly, which apparently was the wrong answer.

The governor issued a new order to open up more businesses and to allow restaurants and other businesses to operate at 50% capacity. It has really affected me mentally. When speaking to a friend earlier, I like in debt to being on a runaway train heading straight for a while knowing full well that the people in control of the train refused to pull the brakes because they'll make more money if we crash. No one in our government gives a shit that people are dying, and half of the people around me don't believe the news anymore thanks to our president. They don't think that there's a pandemic going on, and they think that having to wear a mask is a attack on their freedoms. So literally everyone around us who could be stopping this virus and saving lives refuses to.  It's almost worse than being in the middle of a pandemic, knowing that half the world around you will not listen to science or math or medical professionals or any sense of logic. We're surrounded by selfish greedy assholes who are killing away our population because I don't care about anything other than themselves and their businesses and their reputations. Meanwhile, I believe a report came out saying that Trump has been taking Hydroclosin or whatever that medication is that Trump kept telling everyone was a cure to COVID-19 and turned out that it wasn't at all. Idiots. Everywhere. 

Yesterday I saw one it the other 1st grade teachers at the party neighbors house.  She stood right next to the kid like nbd and said "let me put on my gloves and mask. Do you have a mask?"

And then she put them on and they one-arm hugged and stood there talking for 45 minutes.

TODAY I SEE THIS ON TRUMP MOMS PAGE WITH YET ANOTHER FIRST GRADE TEACHER.