Quarantine Journals - Therapy

Well, I was just going to mention that the going into the office thing was the final nail in the coffin with regards to my deteriorating mental health.  So, the night he told me, I called a few therapists that I had called weeks ago while out at my dad's house, but never heard back from.  The one that Amber sees called me back the next morning, and I made an appointment. I have seen her twice, and I hope that she will help me find some balance in the feelings that I am feeling so I can go back to being the fuller cup kind of parent that I want to be.  But it feels like between me getting super sick in February and the house and the job and my dad's tooth breaking and the never ending dance with the  impcomtent contractors... I am always in crisis.

I am glad I had an appt with her tonight while I am freaking out about tomorrow.

On a side note, I binge watched Lucifer, and then watched it again while a friend was watching it, and I honestly think that's what helped normalize therapy for me.  I think Schitts Creek and Lucifer will define this time period for me. Ha.


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