Quarantine Journals - Father’s Day

It's been a rough week. I feel like I've been up till 3 o'clock in the morning the last several nights, frequently crying. I got into missing my mom really deep this year. I'm still working through a lot of memories and a lot of feelings and a lot of regrets. But, are used my time last night to put up a banner for Richard and make him a card for Father's Day. Penny made the banner during the day, and when he woke up this morning that's what was waiting for him.

He woke me up around 10, and we all went outside on the porch to enjoy the cool front and the sound of the rain. But the thunder and lightning got pretty intense, so we ended up coming back inside after a quick game of Jenga and a couple of meltdowns from our three-year-old.

Yesterday, when Richard got home from work, Oliver was so excited about the gifts that we had wrapped, then he started sobbing when I told him that we weren't going to open them until today. So I let him give Richard one gift early, which was a board book about dinosaurs. Then all three of them sat there and read it together and it was very cute.

Today, he opened the rest of his Father's Day gifts, which was met with conflict and meltdowns regarding who would unwrap them, and how Penny never got to.  We got him some more dinosaur books to read with Penny, a new board game to play with penni during naptime, and some accessories so he could start fermenting stuff again.

Then we had lunch, and he wanted to take Oliver for a nap. While he was laying down, Penny and I made him a peach cobbler. When he woke up we a peach cobbler and ice cream, pretty much for dinner, and then had a late dinner of burgers and fries, which is what he has been craving. We watch the Mandalorian while we ate, and Penny is super into it.

Overall, I think/hope that he had a good day. He got a nail in his tire on Saturday, so we will be dealing with getting that fixed tomorrow. I noticed that Goodyear and NTB are offering mobile no contact services, so my hopes are high that we can get it resolved without having to have any exposure.

The rate of infections and hospitalizations continue to go through the roof. Dallas businesses must now require masks due to a loophole, so thank goodness someone figured out a way to promote community health without waiting on Abbott to do something.

Trump held his giant rally in Tulsa yesterday. He and his press secretary kept talking about how millions were expected, and they were going to have an overflow arena, and Trump and pants would both be making speeches to the overflow. But, only about 5000 people showed up. Apparently, a bunch of teenagers on TickTock started a trend of reserving seats, so the millions of people that had RSVPed were actually just awesome teens and people trolling Trump.  Trump seemed real pissed off/sad about it when he returned to the White House afterwards. It's Thai was undone, and his head hanging low, and he just look very pissed off or sad. I almost felt bad for him.

I continue to struggle with this allergic reaction that I had to the yeast infection cream that my OB/GYN called me in because she refused to call me in Diflucan. And possibly still have issues with yeast infection, who knows. But I refuse to go into the office, risk exposure for me and my family, and no longer be able to go see my dad. So, I took an expired Diflucan yesterday, and I'm hoping that that helps. Otherwise, I'm gonna try to do a telehealth visit with some random doctor and see if I can get them to call me in another prescription. But, honestly, I don't even want to risk the exposure of driving through the pharmacy to pick up my medication When we're talking about my dad's health.

Speaking of my dad, I FaceTime due with him earlier, and we talked for a good 30 to 45 minutes. It was nice to see his face, and we had some good conversations. I feel so bad that he still out there alone, and he hasn't heard from Brandon in weeks. Not even today on Father's Day.

My dad did make some off-the-wall comments as we were getting off of our call about Oliver. I mentioned that he loves to dress up, and showed him the awesome outfit that Oliver had just came out in. My dad cheered "just don't let his sister dress him up in dresses." Which I think was kind of a jab at me because I used to dress Brandon up in dresses all the time. But I laughed and said "don't worry, he dresses himself up in the dresses." And my dad laughed incredulously and said "cross dressing Ha?" And seemed really put off by it. But I just laughed and said "their twirly and they're fun and they're comfortable, who wouldn't want to wear one? Sigh. We will get him to unlearn all this toxic masculinity stuff one day at a time. I know he didn't really truly mean anything by it, but it put me off. 

Anyway, we ate two more of our strawberries today, and most other plants are doing well. 

 I'm off to bed